why?

i have no idea why i keep posting to this blog - i know no one will ever even see it.

the other day riding over the gg bridge i got so mad at tourists that i was yelling to myself. YELLING! one guy literally rode into me. i kept thinking he was going to veer out of my way, but he never did. must be from a left side of the road country. still, dude, you're in america. if someone is riding towards you, get out of the way. i had nowhere to turn as his friends were all riding next to him across the entire walkway. unbelievable.

i'm building a worm bin. i'm pretty excited about it. i think i'll start an herb garden with their poop, because really, what else am i going to do with it?

Buy Green - Spend LOTS of $$!

ok now people. i was just looking at treehugger.com and checking out their 'buying green' section. these are items they tout as hand-picked, best of the green bunch. desks, computers, chairs, shoes, jeans, etc. i'll give you a couple highlights - the desks (simple desktop with legs, no drawers, no nothin') were $500 and up. the jeans? $120-$160. people! you don't have to try SO HARD and spend SO much money to be 'green' - go to a thrift store and buy a pair of $10 jeans, go to the junk yard and get an old door and some pipes and make a desk for about $20. it just seems like such a sham to me. i understand having to pay a little more for recycled products, because is costs more to make them - especially plastic. what i don't understand is why a pair of jeans has to be almost $200 because they are made from organic cotton.

what is this world coming to?

Rules for Tourists Crossing the GG Bridge

I have come up with a few rules which, if followed, could help prevent injury and harm to both tourists and commuters while sharing the Golden Gate Bridge. These rules are for the pedestrians and the bicycle tourists, not for cars.

1. When you're walking in your groups, please try to keep it two-by-two instead of four across. The sidewalk needs to house more people than just your group and occasionally people need to go faster than you (like people on bikes).

2. Please walk in a straight line so that your moves can be predicted. This can help prevent you being hit by a cyclist.

3. When a cyclist (me) yells 'on your left!' they (I) actually mean that they are coming up on your left. Please, oh please do not interpret this as 'jump to your left!' while looking to the right.

4. If you are on a bike (we know who you are with your little map packs strapped to your handlebars), please pick a side to ride on. The middle of the sidewalk is NOT a good place to ride.

5. OK, I know it's a beautiful bridge with a beautiful view, but WALKING with your head up, left, right, pretty much anywhere other than looking straight ahead is asking to be hit by a cyclist. If you want to look, move to the side, stop, and view.

6. Not to bring up the left vs. right again, but why is it that more than half the time I yell 'left' you look right?

7. Helpful tip: the bridge is not that steep of an incline going up, you can move out of the easiest gear. I promise, it will be OK.

8. Please re-read #5 and apply that to taking pictures as well. Walking the bridge with your face in a camera, especially aimed up, left or right is asking for mayhem.

9. I know it's a little weird to end on 9, but this one is so important it should count as 2. I know it's exhausting crossing the bridge when you typically don't get any exercise, but the pole areas are NOT places set out for you to nap, stretch out, have a picnic, or anything else other than standing along the edge to take in the view. Please, oh please, do not lye down in the middle of the walkway!

Thank you.

something nice

the other day i was running through the panhandle of the park, and it was moist, not quite wet. it was quiet and smelled like damp dirt and tree bark. there was no sun, it was a gray day. i thought to myself, this is san francisco, and i was glad to be home.

Less pissed off today (but still pissed)

so what the fuck is up with trying to get medical insurance when you are on more than two prescriptions? medical insurance is apparently only for people who don't need it. FUCK! california has a government subsidized plan for "major risk" people, which is three to ten times more expensive than "regular" insurance (i'm talkin' $350 - $900 a month). so, what makes you a major risk? yes, that's right, if you take more than two prescriptions for one condition, you are a major risk. god forbid you actually have TWO conditions. who the fuck in america doesn't have anxiety? and how many people have asthma? well, it is a SORRY day for those of us who have both. major risk. the only major risk is trying to live in this country and take care of your health at the same time if you're self employed.

i'll probably write about some nice things tomorrow.

I'm pissed off today

i'm pissed today for no good fucking reason. i hate taxes, i hate the fact that i have to go running when air quality is so bad i shouldn't even go outside, i'm pissed that my husband gets pissed when i'm pissed, and i hate that the 80's fashion is coming back. it's all bullshit. my period is going to be here any minute, george carlin is dead and, fuck, i'm just really, really pissed.

i know i will feel better after i run, but will i really, or will i just be even more pissed about the air? honestly i would like to just go back to bed, but then i would be pissed at myself for not doing a god damned thing today. i'm fucked.

i kind of feel like my husband torments me sometimes. it's like he has a radar for when i am on the edge, and he will say something like, "how are you going to pay your taxes for your business?" i know he didn't say it to be mean or anything, but i felt like, shit, i'm just trying to get my fucking business going, i don't want to worry about that right now! and by the way, how do YOU deal with YOUR taxes?? that's right, you DON'T because I DO. have i mentioned that i loathe taxes? you know that if you're self employed there is an extra 15% self employment tax, which is supposed to cover medicare and social security, something our generation will probably never even SEE. did you also know that if you don't pay enough estimated taxes throughout the year you are subject to a penalty at the end of the year? they are ESTIMATED!!! what the fuck??? so if your tax bracket is 25%, and you have to pay another 15%, you're paying 40% in taxes. pretty much half of what you take home. how is that fair? hey, thanks for the stimulus package dub dub, i used it to pay part of my husbands Q1 estimated taxes.

i just looked outside and i can't see through the air. fuck this. i'm not running today. i guess i'll just be pissed off all day. i don't have time now anyway. it was very important to me to start a blog and throw my anger out into the abyss of the interweb (yes, i know it's internet you fucks. i think interweb is funnier)

other things that piss me off in general (if you have found this blog and decide to start reading it, you will probably hear a lot about these things): dudes on fixies with their little fucking hats, their pegged pants and flat shoes. tourists on the golden gate bridge who don't pay attention to people on bicycles. coffee shop people who don't know your drink even though you've gone in there every day for the past year. people who honk at you for no good reason.

there are things that make me happy and glad to be here on this amazing planet, but today is not the day i'm going to talk about any of them.  maybe tomorrow.